summer blues

I don't know what I'm feeling these days. I guess the only way to describe it is the blues. I'm anxious but also dreading the start of the new quarter, and I'm just waiting for some change in my life. At the beginning of each school year, I think that some dramatic change has occurred deep within myself, but my actions seem to tell me otherwise. I just feel so disassociated to everything and so unsure of everything, and I feel like the transition from life at home in the valley to life at school in Irvine is forcing me to wake up from all the haze. I'm just worried that I'll leave the haze of the valley, and enter a stony jadedness in Irvine. Maybe I'm being too dramatic about everything and I'm just a lazy ass who wants to avoid all the stresses that school brings, LOL!

All of these thoughts really make me wonder, "What would life be like with a group of real chingoos?"
I really like that song "Chasing Pavements" by Adele, very soothing...