it's simple

as i type i feel numb. i just want to convey something real. i want the blood to just rush through my finger tips, if that is even how my body works. i want to feel comfortable in my own thoughts, even though there's a million things running through my head, i just want to feel good about saying, "Hey world, this is who I am, take it or leave it. I'm human and I'm growing, but don't put yourself through unnecessary stress in reprimanding me for trying to develop myself. If you choose to do so, then... hey that's okay. I'll be a better man because of it."

people all around me, looking at me with judging eyes, make me fear the world's view, but as each day goes by life flashes right before me, and I feel jipped, yes jipped! Jipped for being stuck in their words. Jipped for caring so much, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I want to shout, "HEY, HEY! You look good today! Thanks for noticing me enough to criticize me! I'm different, I know, but one day this difference is gonna change the world. You might say I'm naive or immature. You might say that I'm a queer kid who has a warped sense of life, but just wait... Wait for me to grow into something bigger than myself. Wait for me to make a change in your life, and please give me that chance cuz I want to help you one day; one day when I become the man that God planned for me to become , I will be of useful assistance to you who persecute me. So thanks and have a nice day! I'm really sorry you feel that way. Maybe I can be of some use to you someday."

In the meantime, I thrive in the world for the people that remind me of the beauty of life. The people who are happy to listen. The people who want the best for me. The people who stop to care. Stop, stop, stop, stop! STOP! STOP! STOOOOOOOOOOP, LOOK, and LISTEN!!!! Sometimes life and people will surprise you and defy all odds in being so sincere and genuine. Don't sell yourself short. It's gonna come back really quick, in the blink of an eye, you might not realize it's there, so just stop and don't be in such a rush. Savor every moment for what it is.

You can be a believer or you can stay skeptical, but you know what? You're only missing out on what life has to offer! Take a step back from everything. All the stress, all the problems, all the messes. Breathe, maybe even, strike a pose or two, no matter how silly you feel. Just believe in the goodness of it all, and the rest will just work out somehow. It always does...in the end.